What's happening??? I knock off work, overtired, vulnerable (as I had just left a well paid job) and think 'wonderful 3 weeks break, and I am really, really looking forward to it!!!! Ha!!! An emotional dump arrives on my first quiet day, ok, that is to be expected, I have had a huge year, and am going to have to find a new way of supporting myself! thats usual! hmm next day, the same, only anger is starting to rise up, ok clear that, now I can rest! phew, Christmas day tomorrow, always a day of peace and love ahhhh! lovely quiet dinner planned, just me and my four legged family at home (planned it that way). Well I woke up crying, and the day disintegrated from there, an incredible pain deep inside me was nothing like I had ever experienced, I never get depressed! I was! I had spoken to a dear friend on the internet the night before and she told me I was choosing it WHHHAAATTT!!!!!!! huh! well not talking to you for a while, have a nice christmas! Still the pain went on, the anger got worse, I screamed the inside of my higher heart and throat out!!! I could cry no more! even when the delight of self sufficiency, the wood stove, refused to get hot, no Christmas dinner. Couldn't eat anyway, thanks God I thought, self pity had taken over and years of its not fair scenario's flooded my mind~ stop! what is going on? Then someone/thing flipped a switch and it just stopped and went away! What was all that????, a few channels here on lw, helped clarify a bit, the lower self fighting to survive, yep, the rewiring taking place, yep sounds good, the wounded inner child, definitely!, but why the depression??
My higher self started to talk to me again, or I started to listen, This is the message I received! Because of the huge amount of spiritual work i had done this year, (Peru, Mnt Shasta, www.tassiesue.com complete with a new crystal business, a new part of myself that just happened to live on the other side of the planet in a different body! and that was only the half of it!!) I was vibrating at a much higher frequency. However, I was existing very comfortably in the 5th dimensional frequencies, in my newly combined front and hind brain (thanks to the ayahausca ~ see my profile on www.lightworkers.org for that story). The Ascension process is happening to our whole self! This means the physical body is ascending too. Herein lay my problem, I had done heaps of work on the mental, spiritual and emotional planes, but not much on the physical, esp as an ankle injury kept me from doing my usual exercise. The body has to be refined to handle the higher frequencies, all the Endocrine glands or Chakras now have to spin at a much faster rate, which then brings the tissues and organs into a higher frequency, and therefore capable of holding, and giving out more light! All that is of a lower frequency had to be released, every little slight that had been done to me as child had to be let go of, wow I didn't realize I was that sensitive, adds new meaning to 'take no prisoners!" Many of you will go through various versions of what I have, and my higher self assures me the body is catching up. The rewiring of the brain has interesting side effects, like an inability to put action to thoughts, eg I sailed past 2 turn offs when driving today, the first one I saw and fixed quickly, the second I just enjoyed the drive until I realized that my lunch date was going to be waiting for about 20mins as I drove back!!! I have also heard similar stories from spiritual friends and they are doing similar things, theirs doesn't seem to take as long though! ok blon, you may have been right!